I’M SWEATY AND I KNOW IT!

Oh my WOW! I experienced a first today at FitFarms that made me stop mid kick boxing and cry out! The whole class, Trainers and my fellow Clients alike, stopped full of concern. What happened? Well, for the first time ever, I sweated SO much that it rolled down my forehead and into my eye! I was so confused at this alien experience, then shocked when I realised what was going on and finally, and rather strangely, elated!

When I explained to the group, they all gave me a cheer and a round of applause – they are such a lovely, supportive lot!

I was so amazed that, once we finished the set we were working on, I had to take a selfie which was immediately photobombed! 
   

 

(I’m planning on writing more posts about my FitFarm adventure, so do pop back!)

RUNAWAY

Today, aged 41 and a 1/4, I ran away from home! Suitcase carefully packed, lunch made, and with a spring in my step I practically skipped up the road.

The last time I ran away, aged approximately 6 and 1/2, it was a different story! Suitcase stuffed with random, fistfuls of socks and pants, nothing to eat or drink I dripped, yes dripped, my angry little self down The Dip to the bus stop. I can’t remember the exact details but they included me getting up from the Sunday lunch table, hand on hip and telling my Mother “You wouldn’t dare!” as she threatened, initially as a joke, to pour her glass of water over me. Needless to say, even the might of a 6 and a 1/2 year old’s fury cannot match the power of The Mother One!

I had no plan. I was going! Leaving my horrible, smelly family FOREVER!! Luckily for me, my family quite liked their 6 and a 1/2 year old so they gave me ten minutes to calm down, then  came and took me home. Luckily for them, the Sunday bus service was shocking!

Today, I have a plan! My family is not horrible or smelly, well most of the time! I am not, in fact, running away. I am running towards… 

…towards a healthier, happier me!

Let the adventure begin!

#ThisGirlCan

Yesterday was momentous! To say I feel proud of myself is an understatement! Why am I feeling this way? Well…I ran! Yup! That’s right…Mrs F, Mum, Miriam, me… R.A.N! 

  
No, there was no fire, no children in peril, no monster chasing me. I chose to run, not Olympic speeds (yet), but far from the nervous, self conscious shuffle that I am known for on the school run! 

I chose to run the last six, one minute intervals of my 45min power walk. I gripped the supporting bars like my life depended on it and went for it!

#ThisGirlCan  #whoopwhoop

I WISH…

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I saw this on facebook this week and it got me thinking… I’ve always been ‘the fat one’, I can’t remember a time when I didn’t feel fat and felt that people saw me as fat and judged me for it.

Don’t get me wrong, I know I am fat. I know I eat too much and do too little but I also feel that a major factor in my steady increase in size is linked to the way I have been viewed by others over the years.

To illustrate this here are a few photos of me:

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Me aged about six. I recall being the fat girl in class and having to visit a dietitian about my weight.

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Me aged about thirteen on our first ‘proper’ holiday. I felt HUGE.

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Me getting ready for my 18th birthday night out. I recall feeling so frumpy and chunky compared to my friends…

Twenty two years on from that photo, I would LOVE to look like that! Maybe, one day, I’ll look like that again…

I NEED A MATINÉE

According to OxfordDictionaries.com, the definition of a matinée is:

An afternoon performance in a theatre or cinema

However, for me, it has two additional and totally different meanings.

The first has been used in my family since I was a child. It refers to the fact that my lovely Mum (funnily enough pictured with me in front of the Gielgud Theatre about to watch the matinée performance of Blythe Spirit staring the fabulous Angela Lansbury) used to sit down to watch the Sunday matinée after cooking us a yummy, if sometimes ‘interesting’, family lunch and five minutes into the film, would fall fast asleep! To add to our amusement, she would wake up five minutes before the end, give the newspaper she had been ‘reading’ a shake and ask what had happened! This happened with such regularity that, if we feel tired during the day, we say we could do with a matinée!

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The second meaning is one that, I think, only I use. It is directly linked to the very same matinée films mentioned above. I have such fond memories of childhood Sunday lunches – the whole family together around the table, talking and laughing and critiquing Mum’s latest concoction. And these happy family get togethers were always followed by a matinée and, if we were lucky a box of Milk Tray or Dairy Milk chocolates. Sometimes it would be a glorious Technicolor musical, others a more serious black and white drama. Either way there were, more often than not, tears. Sometimes tears from laughing so much at a funny scene or one of us joining in, tunelessly, to one of the big numbers. Sometimes tears triggered by the moving, often war time based, story. Either way, most weekends I’d have a good old cry or, as I now call it, a matinée.

My life today, while in no way hard, is full of pressures and tensions that the little girl of my childhood could never have imagined. I often get to a point when I know that the best way to move forward is to have a big cry and just let it all go. There really isn’t anything like letting all your emotions flood out of you, the relief and release is truly cathartic. It won’t change the situation or the things I have to deal with but releasing all my emotions and tension helps to face my troubles head on, a stronger and more in control woman.

So, should you need a matinée, be it the need for a good film, a nap or a good cry just do it, you will feel better for it!

SQUEEZE ME, SQUEEZE ME, SQUEEZE ME BABY!

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Continuing on a theme from my facebook page, today I am very excited as I have finished my 3Day Juice Cleanse and have had some AMAZING results!

As those of you who know me are aware, I usually Squeeze to boost my rather rubbish, vegetarian diet. However this time, although my aim was the same, I decided to do a before and after weigh. Why? Well, due to a conflict between my intolerance to raw pineapple and the inclusion of it in one of the ingredients in one of my usual juices, the lovely Becky from Squeeze swapped it for one I had not had before – Slim Me Squeeze!

So…are you ready? I think you should probably sit down! I weighed myself on Monday morning (on the Wii) and then again this morning and I have lost…

 

 

 

1 STONE 3 POUNDS*!

I can hardly believe it myself and would have questioned it, if I hadn’t used the Wii! I have just been on holiday but I only put on 2lb over the two weeks (I don’t normally weigh myself so much but the last time I went on holiday abroad – aka ‘The Holiday From Hell’ – I got food poisoning and ended up loosing weight, so was curious about what would happen this time), so the weight loss isn’t down to my holiday indiscretions!

I would also suggest that it isn’t all water. I know that the Slim Me Squeeze had a selection of fruit and vegetables which promote water loss however I also have to drink lots of water while doing the cleanse in order to flush out the baddies, so guess I replace a lot of it.

I carry a lot of extra weight and so, on a slightly sad note, you can’t really see any difference at the moment but I can feel it already.  My back is less achy, my knees less creaky and my tummy feels squidgy rather than bloated and near popping! On top of all this, I am absolutely BUZZING!

I don’t have plans for a size 6 or 8 or size anything but I do want to feel fitter and healthier. The added bonus that meeting Becky and trying her fabulous juices and smoothies has given me is that I can do this in an all natural way.

Oh! I have one more thing to say…

…Squeeze Me Baby!

Squeeze me baby!

*Becky tells me that this is a record amount however you do tend to loose some weight when Squeezing.  Also, the Wii fit told me he was worried about my dramatic weight loss! So, I know this is a big amount to loose over a short period but it came by surprise and I am going back to, not my usual, but a healthier diet to try and continue to loose the weight in a steady manner and have told the Wii that I am aiming to loose roughly 2lb every two weeks and he seems happy with this!

 

 

 

 

 

 

ONE DAY

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First book I’ve read in years! At least , it’s the first book I’ve read like I used to read BC* – non stop, hardly able to put it down, great chunks at a time…until the last chapter, when the feeling of impending loss kicks in and I make each page last as long as possible.

I had forgotten how it felt to read, properly read a book, not just drag my eyes across the same paragraph over and over in bed just before practically passing out from the exhaustion joys of parenting!

Am feeling elated yet bereft but mostly elated!

It’s a great book. I loved it! And I am not alone, according to The Times Review it is “A wonderful, wonderful book’ and Nick Hornby sums it up with “Big, absorbing, smart.”

Read it! One Day by David Nicholls.

*Before Children